I have a wonderful family and life. I know I'm blessed but sometimes I see those turbulent waves pop up now and then. It seems what sets me off these days is that many people (not my family) have forgotten what it means to be caring or nice. It brings to mind the saying: do unto others as you would have them do unto you. It doesn't cost money or take much to be polite and caring.
I don't like change; if something works why change it. It will almost be six years since I moved to California. Sometimes I think if I was younger and had children then the move would have been easier. I've struggled to find a church and I'm almost to the point of becoming indifferent. But, on the bright side, I'm here next to my grandchildren; I see them numerous times each week and it's beyond joy to see them growing up. This is what makes life special.
I've always enjoyed meeting and visiting with older people. You can learn so much from them. But it seems like today's society only wants what is new and modern; friends included. I may be 62 and look 62 but in my mind (yes, my mind), I don't feel a certain age. But people can judge by looking. Two friendships that I cherished most were knowing two elderly friends; my dear friend Zaizaf and dear Mrs. G. Both of these women were immigrants to this country and they were filled with knowledge. They are gone now but I feel blessed to have known them. It's like looking at a cover of a book. It may not look "new" but oh, what a wonderful story is waiting for you.
Not everyone can project laughter, joy, spontaneous behavior but although they may seem quiet, they can be filled with so much joy and giving to share with others. My son who was home for an extended visit left yesterday to return to his work in Europe. I woke up this morning and my goodness the house was so empty. My husband agreed with me. It's still sometimes difficult to be an empty nester.
I love my life to be calm and quiet. Today my best friend for over 40 years called me. She has been dealing with some health issues in her family and I felt so bad I wasn't there to be with her. But, during our phone call today she brought joy to my heart. You know why? Because she too had been experiencing some of the same things as me and we understood each other's feelings. Her son had been home visiting with her and left this week. She felt sad. We spoke about how it's always hard to see them leave but of course they will return. Then we spoke about church. She has been going to her church for over 40 years. And now, just like me, she's struggling because of the changes that have occurred at her place of worship. I know this story well.
It may seem like I'm rambling on but accepting change is not an easy thing for me to do. On the other hand, I have no right or reason to complain. Life has been good to me and is good to me. My husband is always here to listen to me and my dear daughter does a wonderful job to keep both my husband and I entertained. So, I will carry on and continue to enjoy each and every day and all that life has in store for me. And maybe, gradually, I will be able to accept change more easily.
When I started this blog a few years ago, I never realized what joy and happiness it would bring to me. I learn so much for you my dear readers. And, if you really think about it, I shouldn't say I'm an empty nester because my husband and I do have Lilly, my big, Maine Coon kitty that keeps us company :)
I hope to return next week with maybe a knitting project. There's a couple of WIPs on my needles and so far, it's coming along splendidly. Until then...
My best wishes to you,